The Crystal Being Let Me Know I Was On The Wrong Path

Citrine Crystal Ball
 

So just a recap of what has happened thus far in my story.........
I went to the crystal store and bought my first two crystals not doing any prior research about which ones to get.  I ended up choosing an Amethyst and Citrine.  After putting on the Citrine I immediately switched vibrations to a far lower one where I needed ALL the power in the house.  Shortly after that I very suddenly shifted to a ultra high vibration where I had no want of power anymore at all.  And then I settled into a medium vibration where everything seemed balanced and I felt at total peace and harmony within my body. I actually stood outside my body and witnessed all this transformation taking place being quite clear in MY mind.  At the same time however I could hear all the mental chatter of a crazy person going on and couldn't make it stop.  It was such a strikingly odd happening that when it was over I had to lay down to try to figure out just what had taken place in my body and mind.  It didn't take long to connect the new citrine in my aura to my new vibration I was enjoying....But went through hell to get to.

 

After this experience I decided I would just wear the Amethyst.  I didn't know for how long I would abstain from wearing the Citrine and I didn't really care either, even though its really pretty.  I was very happy just wearing the Amethyst. It really gave me a nice calm vibe.  And started influencing my dreams.  They became more lucid.

One day, I wanted to wear the citrine for some reason, I think it was just to show off that I had more than one crystal at work.  I could not find it.  I looked up and down my house.  Later on that same day, I happened upon a you tube video about crystals.  The video was about how to clean your crystals and set intentions into them, to program them.  She also said, which struck me, that often you will loose your crystal.  This simply means that the crystal being is done with you and is being used by someone else who needs its healing energy.  She actually said crystals can dematerialize from your cupboard and materialize where they will be found by the one who needs them.

I was down with that. 

 

Another month went by, often I looked in my jewelry drawer to adorn myself and never seen my crystal again.  Then, one day, I opened up my drawer and there she was.  She struck me again and I was full of joy to have found her.  I put her on and went to work, so proud of her too.

I work as an Optician for a corporation.  I love my job and was completely satisfied.  Until I wore the Citrine in that is.

That day was extremely busy.  I worked through all my breaks and people loved me, I was rocking the joint.  (As always).  I just felt like I was not being fairly compensated monetarily anymore.  I just felt that I was worth so much more and that I was being taken for granted.  I have people coming in to see me from across the bridge for goodness sakes because they heard about my skill.  Has happened time and again. 

My self worth was accurate for once and I could see it clear as day.  I knew I would not get an adequate raise working for this corporation so it was on this day that I wrote a very simple and to the point letter of resignation.  And just as I suspected, I was pleaded with to stay but when I told them how much I wanted to stay they did not think I was worth that amount. (the corporation, not my supervisor).  I know that my decision was influenced by my new little being I strung around my neck and let hang out in my aura.  Coworkers said this is so unlike you, you were just saying the other day that you love your job and were completely satisfied and would never leave this place.  But good on you.  You are worth it.

 

Solar Plexus Chakra

Manipura
Lustrous Jewel


 

Developing Singularity

Singularity develops in teenagers and is fully comprehended by the time we reach full maturity.  The Solar Plexus Chakra is responsible for inner knowing and gut instincts   Everyone knows we are separate individuals and we are expected to be separate by the time we are an adult.  This activates our Solar Plexus Chakra into becoming bigger, which in turn manifests a strong and resilient inner core.

Personal Worth

Self-worth is the key quality of the solar plexus chakra.  The true self is always whole and perfect.  You can not affect the true self by pain or trauma, regardless of what happens to an individual, the self stays intact and shines like the sun.

Power and Resistance

   Your power lives in this Chakra and is the effect of knowing who we are.  Resistance and opposition are forces nature places in our paths so we develop our powers further.  These powers include influencing others and changing circumstances around us.  We can cultivate this power to master ourselves and build character.  When doing such things as sticking by someone no matter what,   or sticking up for what is right in our own lives or even just finishing a project, our sense of power and self worth grows bigger. Depth and quality are in turn added to our character.   This opposition and resistance are crucial to the development of the Solar Plexus Chakra.  From the view of the Chakra, we will witness life in terms of us and them or others. This duality is how the ego forms and how we come to know  ourselves in the world.

Qualities and Attributes

Location:  Directly below the sternum and over the stomach

Age of Resonance: 14-21

Sensory Experience: Vision

Qualities: Self-worth, self esteem,, confidence, personal power, freedom of choice.

Life Issues: To develop a strong and resilient ego, to know you are worthy simply because you exist.

Physical Activities: Sports, competitive programs, qi gong, hiking, cycling.

Spiritual Activities: Leadership programs, psychotherapy, amateur dramatics, appreciating solitude.

Essential Oils: Lemon, grapefruit, juniper

Plant: Carnation

Metals: Iron, gold

Element: Fire

Music Note: E

Type of Music: Marches

 

Carnation

Archetypes

Positive: The Warrior

The warrior is an empowered person with a definite sense of selfhood.  Warriors know who they are both to themselves and to the world.  Their sense of self is perfectly balanced neither being too puffed up or too fragile.  They have what it takes to see their dreams materialise and are also physical fit and emotionally stable.

Negative:  The Servant

The personal identity of this archetype is found externally from themselves.  The servant is found always to be seeking confirmation of self worth from others and needs acknowledgement for work done.  They are constantly draining themselves of energy doing this and in effect committing self sabotage.

The Solar Plexus Chakra and the Body

Associated Body Parts

Muscles, small intestines, gallbladder, liver, pancreas, stomach.

Physical Problems

Diabetes, inflammation of the pancreas, gallstones, hepatitis, ulcers, acid stomach, indigestion .

 

Glandular Connection Pancreas

Physically, the pancreas regulates carbohydrate metabolism.  This includes the glucose and insulin levels found in the blood.  Nutritional absorption is also governed by the pancreas.  At an esoteric level, the pancreas holds the joy in the body.  As an example, diabetes is theorised  to be a disease of want of joy.  As we establish  a sense of selfhood, our  joy increases and we experience the power of healing in our emotional and physical well being.

Aspects of the Solar System

The Sun

Mars and the Sun

Pyramids on Mars

Giving Up The Power Struggle

This topic if very hard for an Aries woman to talk about.

To continue on with my story....
When I got home from the crystal shop I sat down at the kitchen table and unwrapped my new friends.  The princess amethyst and the powerful citrine.  I put the citrine on and put the amethyst away for later (not knowing then that I would actually need it to calm me).  Within 5 minutes of wearing the citrine, my vibrational frequency changed to a nasty, power starved, shaking beast.  I had no idea what was happening to me and I did not connect the sudden mood swing to the crystal at the time.  I stood outside of my body and watched my body(and mind) grasping for the last straws of ultimate power within the dynamics of a husband and wife relationship.
 Me being an Aries with Taurus tendencies and moon in Gemini makes me one hell of a bitch sometimes. (To be quite frank).  I am working on controlling my temper though.  I seem to have a very strong dark side, and for anyone who has read the works of Eckhart Tolle,  a pain body like no other.  I thank my lucky stars though that I am not plagued by this kind of condition frequently.  Like other people, I have my triggers. 
After this short digress into my natal chart we find ourselves back in my story of the citrine crystal.  I cant explain my rationality for acting the way I did, it simply was not rational and I knew this at the time because like I said I had to step out of my body to witness this. It was too painful to actually be present in the body at that time.  So I remember looking at my mind thoughts and knowing they weren't mine, that I didn't actually feel this way.  Wishing I could just make it stop now not after the process had finished.  Somehow I knew I was experiencing a physical transformation and my mind was fighting it. I remember at one time just plain asking for help because I couldn't take the frequency anymore.  And then it suddenly stopped.  I was back in my body and it felt changed.  I felt clear and clean and I didn't care about power at all anymore.  I felt balanced. I knew I had changed.  I went and layed down to contemplate what had just taken place, after a while I remembered my precious crystal.  Nah, couldn't be, could it.
I jumped out of bed and went to find out more about the crystal being I had just let into my aura....